In an incredibly courageous move, San Antonio’s Lonnie Walker IV opened up on Instagram about sexual abuse he suffered as a child.
In a video where he gets his distinctive hairstyle shaved off, Walker, says he first grew out his hair as a cover, a mask for the insecurities and emotions he struggled to deal with. Walker, 21, said it used to give him confidence, but now it was time for him to move forward.
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The real truth as to why i started doing this early 5th grade, it was a cloaking device for me. During the summer of my 5th grade year I was around more family. Some that names will be left alone I was around more. I was sexually harassed, raped, abused, I even got accustomed to it because being at that age you don’t know what is what. I was a gullible curious kid that didn’t know what the real world was. I had a mindset that my hair was something that I can control. My hair was what I can make and create and be mine. And it gave my confidence. As of recently I wasn’t at my best. Previous History popping up in my head and it sucked mentally “demons”….. because of this virus, I began to truly look at myself in the mirror and see who I truly was even behind closed doors. Long story short I have found peace and internal happiness through this journey god willingly. I forgave everyone even the people that don’t deserve it why? Because it’s dead weight. Time doesn’t wait on anyone so why should I waste my time on it ? Me cutting my hair was more than a cut. My hair was a mask of me hiding the insecurity’s that I felt the world wasn’t ready for. But now better then ever. Out with old. In with the new. I have shed my skin mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Life will always be hard. Gotta play with the cards your dealt with and try and make a winning hand. And if you lose. It’s never a lost. It’s a lesson 🙏🏾. I’m gonna be off this for awhile still growing through this. Just know I love each and everyone one of y’all. Peace love and happiness 💕🙏🏾
“The real truth as to why I started doing this early 5th grade, it was a cloaking device for me. During the summer of my 5th grade year I was around more family. Some names will be left alone, I was around more.
“I was sexually harassed, raped [and] abused. I even got accustomed to it because, being at that age, you don’t know what is what. I was a gullible, curious kid that didn’t know what the real world was. I had a mindset that my hair was something that I can control. My hair was what I can make and create and be mine. And it gave confidence.”
In the video, Walker lays out the history of his hair as it shorn off by barber’s clippers, from when he had red mohawk through a flat top and on to the distinctive look that has been his since he came into the league.
That Walker was able to open up about this was powerful and may help some people dealing with similar issues in their lives.
Walker is a rising star in the Spurs organization who averaged 5.6 points per game for San Antonio this season. The Spurs are one of the teams going to Orlando for the NBA’s restart. The Spurs are four games behind the Grizzlies for the final playoff spot in the West, if they can move up to the ninth seed and be within four games of Memphis they can be part of a two-team play-in tournament.